Hello everybody,

On the 22nd of september, I turned 25 years old. I had the best day ever. Almost all of my friends made the trip. We danced, laughed, ate cake and drank until 4 am in my favourite pub. I'm the luckiest girl on earth. I have awesome friends. It was one of the best days of my life.

Since then, I've been reflecting on my life. I am happy. Sometimes a little less. I tend to care too much and expect a lot of myself and from people around me. I can be pretty brutal. I easily forgive but never forget. I think too much. I want honesty and warmth. I crave attention and give my whole to everyone. I'm not sure I should keep doing that...

I've began this year to do a list of 25 THINGS TO DO BEFORE I'M 25. So here are a few things I did or plan on doing before I turn 26.

#1 Get my diploma.
#2 Get a new flat closer to my friends.
#3 Throw a big birthday party.
#4 Book a big trip to a far away country (California, here we come ♡)
#5 Go to the restaurant alone.
#6 Go for a walk alone.
#7 Travel alone.
#8 Do thalasso.
#9 Go back to brown hair.
#10 Go shopping alone.
#11 Drink less and eat healthier.
#12 Show more appreciation.
#13 Enjoy little things.
#14 Take small breaks.
#15 Cut some slacks.
#16 Be braver.
#17 Get a big tattoo.
#18 Shop less.
#19 Sell stuff.
#20 Work less and rest more.
#21 Learn to let a go.
#22 Be less serious all the time.
#23 Tell people I love them.
#24 Be more grateful.
#25 Try to be bold and bright.

What's on your list?

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Hello my sweet birds,

I hope all is well.

I've been toying with the idea of writing about bravery. Over the years, it has become something quite important. It can have different shapes and forms. Yet, I can observe bravery everyday and still be amazed by how brave people are. There is no small act of bravery. Sometimes being brave involves getting out of bed and sometimes it takes more than that. Sometimes it's simply standing up for yourself or someone else. Sometimes it's choosing to take the high road when all you want to do is fight. Sometimes it's kicking life to the curb. Sometimes it's simply breathing. It often involves getting out of your comfort zone.

I've never considered myself as brave. I've always felt like I was playing it safe. Always saying the right thing at the right time. Being the perfect little girl everyone wanted me to be. I'm pretty sure that for a while I was that girl. The one that had to always be perfect. Be who everybody wanted me to be. Oh boy, that girl with the broken smile was not happy. She was bittersweet.

She was a tune I could not play. It took me a long time and a big struggle to realize it. I made a promise to myself that day. Every night that I cried myself to sleep thinking that tomorrow would be my very last day, I decided. I decided that if life, god, jesus or karma decided to let me live and to give me another chance I would be better. I would do better. I would overcome my fear. I will no longer let my fears rule me.

If anyone would have told me back then that 5 years later I would still be alive, I would have not believed it. The odds were so against me. I could barely walk. My lungs were failling. My liver was crappier than ever. Breathing simply felt like it was taking away all the strength I had left. I was sick. Very sick but also tired of life pushing me around. I could barely get out of bed. Everything hurt.

And then, I got better. I got so much better. I could walk again. I could breath. I don't think I've felt happier in my life than the day they told me I was cured. I would never feel so helpless. And then, for the first time in my life I was safe.

What I mean here by sharing this part of my story is that you shouldn't wait for life to knock you down to decide to do something brave, to be brave. That's when the magic happens. Make the most of today. You can never know how much time you have left on your clock...

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Life is a precious thing. I don't know when or how but at some point we all forgot how precious life can be. I rejoy in the simpliest moments of life. I love afternoons and evenings with my family of friends. I can't take life too seriously.

I have learnt that I can't stay mad. I can't blame anyone. I get tired easily. I don't see the point. I don't give a fuck. It doesn't fit into my fucks budget. Carring about what they did to me or what they thought of me, are beyond me. Something I used to do. For someone who never thinks before she speaks, I was always bothered with the results.

Some people just don't matter. Surely, I will get mad. I will shot and scream. I will argue. I will cry but in the end, I will let go. It will stop bothering me. It took me a lot of efforts and a lot of time but I can now let go. It's such a powerful thing to be able to let go of what doesn't please you. It makes you happy.

It has freed my time and my mind. It's easier. Why did I even care in the first place? What's the point of caring for people who don't care about you or what they do to you?

If I had any advice to give to you, my bird, it would be to stop giving a fuck. It's such a wonderful thing.

Dance like nobody is watching. Speak like no one is listening - they are only pretending anyway. Put yourself first once in a while. Do something just for you. Be yourself and fuck the rest. Live today as if it was your last.

What if today was the last day of your life? What would you do?

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Hello my birds,

I hope all is well for you. It must not come as a surprise but I have decided to do my kind of resolutions. I don't believe in resolutions so I will call these: "my small goals for 2018". I've been thinking and there are a few things I need to give up. This year is going to be my last year as a student - if everything goes right. I need to sort out a few things and get a grip on other things. I mean, I should be more of an adult.

#1 Declutter my life

I feel like I have too many things. I have too many things in my life, on my mind. I need to sort everything out. Reduce the amount of shit I own and buy. I've already manage to reduce the food I waste. I want to reduce the amount of plastic I use. I want to declutter my wardrobe. I want to have a big change. Something different. I want less crap.

#2 Take more time to rest

I'm always rushing. Going places and collecting sleepless nights. I need to remember to take timeout and rest. I need to remember that choosing myself is okay. I have been feeling very tired. I think I might need a good week off...

#3 Travel more

I love traveling. I want to discover new cities. I need to meet new people. See what this world is all about. Adventure is calling. Who's down to be my travel buddy? Let's leave tomorrow.

What are the things you want to leave in 2018?

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Hello, my birds! I don't know about you but I'm one of those people who always expect the other shoe to drop. Every time something good happens I expect something bad to happen. It's like the magical order of things. Whenever I manage to get something, I have to loose something in return. This theory has been proven time after time. It's a fragile balance. I guess it has to do with who I'm as a person. I always go whole heart.

Trust your instincts

Over the years, I've learnt to always trust my guts. It has turned out to be the best thing I could have done. I'll admit it I'm very stubborn. I have a big mouth. Maybe too much of it at times. I always go too far, too quickly. I can be quite ill-tempered. If anything, I'm a handful. I'm often described as good only in small doses. I'm buzzing but I try to take time off to reflect on things. To reflect on what I've done and what I need to achieve. Sometimes, you know deep in your soul what's right for you and what you should do. You can tell when you need to walk away. Even if it hurts, even if it's hard, you have to trust yourself. Do what's best for you. It's okay to be selfish sometimes... In the end, it's important to know when to say stop, to start over and when to simply trust that things will work out for the best.

Never look back

If you took this decision, it was for the best. You had your reasons. Now, you will need to stick with it. Deal with the consequences. In my experience, no matter how scared or self-conscious I was, it turned out alright in the end. I have made some decisions over the last few months. Big ones. I have decided to choose myself. It may sound a bit silly but it's as cheesy as it sounds. I've decided to stop caring so much. To start giving less crap. I have stopped doing the things I didn't want to do. I don't have time to spend with people who don't even bother to check up on me. I don't have time or energy to waste anymore.

I have had a bumpy road but I'm very lucky. I've never had to deal with heavy and very difficult things. I've had an average life. I have a mother, a father and a little brother. I had a grandmother who raised me and built me into the person I am now. Even if I wish I was half the person she was, I think I turned out okay. It can sound easy. It wasn't always easy but it wasn't nothing I could not handle. Life has a way of toughen you up. Building up from the ground where it left your breathless. I'm in an happy place right now. I'm hoping it to last a little while longer. I know it won't but in the meantime I'm enjoying it as much as I can.

I hope you're having a lovely week.

If you're searching for me, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Let me know if you catch it before I do!


And you, do you trust yourself ?

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She’s the type of woman who dances in the rain and swims naked under the moonlight. She will stop everything to help an animal in distress and will fight alongside those who’ve been wronged. She is strong and beautiful—and can be hard as hell to love. Loving a wild-hearted woman means checking your ego at the door: know that you’ll never own her heart. You see her heart is wild as she wanders on her own path letting the wind guide her way. She believes in karma, crystals and good coffee. She is a nomad, always stretching her wings and ready for the next adventure.
– Michele Genzardi.

My favourite quote has to be this one: “not all those who wander are lost”.

I have done a lot of wandering in my life. I never stay somewhere for more than a year. In fact, for the first time, I'm breaking the circle. It’s been 1 year and a half now. I like my flat. I am close to everything. I can travel. I can see my friends. I’m starting a new job soon. I’m moving. Moving up. Moving forward. I never stop. I never take a second to breath. I’m holding on. Not letting myself catch a break.

I feel more alive when I’m traveling. By this time next year, I might end up in England or Ireland. Who knows? Life is way too unpredictable. I’ve learnt to live it day by day. One day at the time. I want to see more of this world. Traveling is good for the soul. It inspires me and it helps me grow as a person. Everyday, I feel the need to meet new people & talk to strangers in the street to feel alive. I like hanging out with inspiring people. I thrive in a friendly & driven environment. I can’t do calm and quiet anymore. I don’t have any time to lose.

I might have already lost too much. Mostly time, energy and love. It’s all conceptual. I go where life takes me. I grab any opportunity coming my way. I open every door. I have no regrets. I always say yes. I am constantly on the lookout for new adventures.


Thankfully, I have people by my side who are more careful than I am and can bring me back to the right set of minds. I should think before I go, before I speak, before I rush into everything. I shouldn’t rely on others like that. It’s not fair on anyone.

It’s like I don’t have time to stop. I’m a girl on a mission. What’s my mission? Taking everything life has to offer and enjoy it while I still can.

I’m afraid of settling down. Stepping down. Taking everything in and wonder. I’m a gipsy soul. Unsure of everything: “surrendering gratefully to wherever life takes me. “ I’m hard to gasp and love. I’m intense. Too quick to follow. Is that why they always leave?

What are your thoughts? Do you feel like you have a wild heart?

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Arguing.

In the big scheme of things, it all sounds pretty futile, doesn’t it? I mean what’s that tiny little thing compared to what’s going on around the world?

I don’t know what it is. I’m not really sure when it happened but I have changed. I have gone into this kind of mood where it seems like nothing really matters anymore. Who am I to complain about anything or hold any grudge or judgement over anyone or anything? What rights do I have? How can I pretend this is important when the world around us is crashing down?

It’s not that important. It won’t change my life. It won’t make a difference in the world. Thus, why should I care? Why should I bother? Now, it all goes above my head. It floats away.

I used to be someone who would argue about pretty much anything with anyone. I could be picky and uneasy. One even said I was very opinionated. A long time ago, I decided that I had to change people. I had to make this world a better place. It was sort of my responsibility to fix their lives.

This year has taught me many things. Among those things, there are valuable lessons. I need to see people for what they are and not what they could be.

Life is too short for me to spend it trying to fix what’s broken. Broken doesn’t mean something is wrong. Broken cannot always be fixed. Sometimes, it’s better to simply let it be broken and walk away.

I’m not saying I gave up on people or relationships. I simply realized that it was consuming. It was exhausting to fight those battles alone, to be the only one making an effort. To try to give life to what was already dead. There was no fire left and by trying to light it up, I was extinguishing my own fire.

By trying endlessly to hold on to what was already gone, I was wasting my energy, my love, my time. The negativity was spreading all over me. Having so much empathy that you can relate to anyone - or any situation - is draining. You always put yourself in their shoes. I have this habit of expecting people to do the same. Unfortunately, it seems like something not everyone can do.

Where was that girl who always saw the bright side? That Bossy girl who would always find a silver lining to pretty much anything? She was left alone, cold and tired on the side of the road. What had she gained from giving her all to the wrong people? Nothing. Emptiness.

That’s why that girl has now decided to forget and forgive. To let others, fight their own battles. To let them argue and waste their time on frivolous things without her. She had far more better things to take care of. Sadly, in this universe, what they were determined to bicker about was nothing. If it didn’t involve life or death, she would not be bothered anymore. She would pick her battles more carefully now. Only fight for those who needed and valued her.

What are your thoughts? What’s the most important thing you have learnt his year?

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Hello lovebirds,

I'm that kind of person. I trust my guts. I don't do usual. I do weird, out of the box. Stand alone. All or nothing. Ride or die. Jump in or out. No tip-toeing, no thinking before I speak. I don't believe in words. I don't believe in settling for something. I don't believe in second choices. I would rather do nothing than to half do something. I don't trust appearances. They are always misleading. Things are always more complicated than that. There are always two sides to every story.

However, I can understand why someone would consider it. It brings security. It brings some kind of confort in knowing that you won't have to work twice as hard. It can also be a safety net. It's a safe bet.

Life ain't easy. So why should you complicate things? Why should you pick the complicated over the plain simple? Why bother? Because it makes you feel alive. Taking a risk makes your heart beat ten times faster. Being bold and brave are exhilarating. Saying yes - and no when necessary - to life is what makes it so surprising and wonderful.

What do you think about settling? Have you ever had to settle?

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Hello lovebirds,

I hope you're having a lovely day. I can't believe the month of July is almost over. It went by sooo fast and yet so slow. It was a big month for me. The finish line. I feel so happy it's behind me now. I feel lighter. I have decided to take this time to reflect on this past few months. It's time to be grateful. In this world, we take too much for granted. Cleary, we've all become disposable. We are always rushing, wanting, consuming. We all tend to loose focus on what matters. If this year has taught me anything it's just that.

1. I'm finally going on holidays. It has been way too long. I'm so excited to discover Milan. By the way, if you have any tips or place to recommend, I would love it!

2. Friends definitely are the family we choose. I've finally accepted that in life, you loose people and that's okay. Some people are not meant to stay in your life. They are part of your past and that's for the best. Only the best sticks around.

3. This is the end of an era for me. I've given a year of my life to the company I work for. It's the end of a chapter and I can't wait to see what's next. The unknown is something exciting. It's full of opportunities.

4. I went a bit cray-cray and got a second hand designer bag. It's one of those designer bags I've been drooling over for years. Who said I was sane?

5. Time. Time does make everything better. Smoother. Easier.

Thank you for reading and I'll see you on Thursday ♥ x

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I think we have all been there. This 'too much' feeling that cuts you to the core. Why is the world like this? What does it has define everything? Why can't we simply live? Why can't we be enough? Why does everything and everyone always have to be too much or too little? Can't we find a balance?

I don't know about you but I've always been called too much and yet never enough. I'm always defined as ' a handful '. I always take too much space. I always open my mouth too much. I'm a walking paradoxe. If there is anything I've learnt over the years is to never appologize for who you are. - unless you're an asshole then get them a new phone. You are who you are. Life happens. Things change. We all make mistakes and learn from them. There is no such thing as being not good enough or too much when you did the best you could.

Society claims that I'm human therefore I am fragile. Don't we all learn at a young age that feelings don't matter and we should hide our hearts? I guess, I skipped that one.

If there is anything I'd like to say to people who are defined by society as too much,, it would be the following message:

YOU ARE TOO MUCH TO BE PUT INTO WORDS. YOUR GREATNESS IS GREATER THAN WHAT THEY CAN PROCESS. YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH. YOU ARE WHAT THE WORLD IS MADE OF. SOMEDAY, SOMEONE IS GOING TO SEE ALL THAT YOU ARE AND BE AS GREAT AS YOU. THEY WILL SEE YOU AS A CHALLENGE. A CHALLENGE THAT THEY CAN MEASURE UP TO AND ALL WILL BE ALRIGHT.

Cause after all, society only fears what they cannot understand.

What about you, what is your label? Have you ever been called: "not enought" or "too much"?

Thank you for reading and I'll see you soon ♥ x

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The truth is I'm at a loss for words. I find it hard to blog about make up and lifestyle when everything around us is crashing down. I love blogging. I love make up and lifestyle. I shouldn't probably let the bad things win. It's letting them win to give up, isn't it? But how can I keep going ? How can I pretend that nothing changed ? How can I pretend that this world is not a gigantic mess ?

I'm not afraid. I'm... Overwhelmed. This world has become so sad and so scary. It keeps on bringing hate and despair.

Where do we stand? Can't we press pause for just one second, love?

Life goes on. Life doesn't go well these days. It's chaos. It's tears and unity. I'm loosing hope in humanity and mankind. We have been fighting for years. We have been killing each other for years. When will it be enough?

Let's decide it's enough. Focus on the good. Focus on how united we need to be. We can be one. One big united world. We are not so different these days. We are all afraid and lonely. This is a scary and sad time to be.

There is nothing we can do. Pray and love without you.

My heart is broken. Broken to see how little humanity is left in us all. Please do not let fear dictate your actions.

This is not the end. Things will get better.

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I don't really know what this was about. I guess it's only my address to the world. If there is anything you would like to add, please be free to do so. After all, Serenbird will always be a safe place - no matter what.
I'm lucky enough to have 500 amazing human beings following me and I wanted to let them know that they are not alone. I stand with you. Always and forever.

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Hello my lovebirds,

I hope you're doing well. The last few weeks have been very hectic. I didn't get much sleep or time to myself but mostly, my biggest excuse for my lack of blogging is : the writer's block.

It seems like my mind has gone blank. I cannot figure out what I want to write about or what I want to do with this blog...

Did it ever happen to you? This feeling. Your mind is suddenly blank. It's like your brain is switched off. There is nothing. Nothing that can motivate you or nothing you could think of. It is all pointless. Why even bother?

I feel like I'm blogging poorly. My content isn't as good as I wanted it to be. I have lost my way.

I guess it has a lot to do with how I've been feeling lately but I'm not drowning yet. I refuse to sink. I'll not let life drag me down with her. I've gone too far. I've fought too hard to give up now. Blogging has always been my little escape.

So, I'm not giving up. I'm not giving up on you, my lovebirds.

I'll not surrender to the waves.

To cheer us up, here are 5 good things of these past few weeks :

1. I've reconnected with an old friend. I'm so so grateful for that. It's such a lovely feeling to reconnect with someone from your past.
2. I'm spending the weekend with one of my bestmates. She is my other half. We have not seen each other in years. I CANNOT WAIT!
3. After a week without hot water, I managed to take a bath. Everyone knows how much I love my baths. There is no trouble that cannot be cured by a hot bath. ♥
4. I've made new awesome friends and met interesting people along the way. It has reminded me of how much I want and need to travel again. I need to find my home, discover new countries, new people and new ways of life ♥
5. Thank you for all the sleepless nights, the laughs, the drinks, the bagels, the dancing and the friendships.


What are your 5 good things? Do not hesitate to share it with us in the comments.
Thank you for reading and I'll see you soon ♥ x

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