Seeing people change is not what hurts ;
what hurts is remembering how they used to be.

So yes, lately I've been fighting this huge feeling in my guts. Awful and sad feeling that I could not shut off. The one that kept warning me that things will never be the same. Everything is changing in my life right now. A lot is going on at the same time and it's hard for me to deal with it. I've so many things to deal with. I've been very focused and reflecting a lot on life and everyone that is in my life right now. I can't help but notice that a lot has changed. I've changed. They have changed. And somehow we are not the same and we've drifted away. I don't enjoy all the things I did. I've grown bitter lately. I know that I shouldn't. I'm lucky. Luckier than most people. I have a part-time job, my studies, a family and a home. I kind of lost my good spirit during this holiday season. The Christmas break is always a tough one for me. But I'm working on getting my spirit back. Getting everything back on track. So I'll see you soon, okay ? Don't give up on me just yet.
Change can be good they say. They also say that not everyone is meant to stay in your life. I guess they're right. It's just hard to accept. To let go is not as easy as it sounds. Especially when you've so many good memories with a person. I've learnt that good decisions are never the easiest. So no matter how much it hurts I will do what I have to do.