Heeeey my lovelies! You might remember this blog where I explained how my life wasn't going the way I wanted it to go. Well, that's putting it simply. Maybe it's more complicated than that. Anyway, I decided to take a big leap of faith. I took it upon myself to get rid of what made me sad. Above everything else, I simply want to be happy. I want to wake-up every morning and feel like I'm doing something right. Blogging feels right. I love blogging. I love writing, taking photographs, creating contents and sharing it with you. I love talking with you, reading your comments. Ultimately, I would be lying if I claimed that I didn't wish it to be a job. However, my blog is clearly not anywhere near that. And that's okay. I got a little out of topic, sorry for all the rambling. July and june have been pretty tough on me. As I took it upon myself to make some changes in my life. I've had to go back to my parents' house after five years away - and yes, it has not been a piece of cake. I've left one of the nicest cities. I kissed goodbye to my independence and my city life to get reunited with my 'country life'. I've had to deal with (p l e n t y of) setbacks. Nothing is going right. I don't feel like my life is back on tracks or that I even have my sh** together.
It's not what happens, it's how you handle it.
I need to make up my mind. For a while, it felt like my brain was frozen. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't think. My head was deep in the dark clouds. Do I try to find a job or do I keep studying ? Do you I try (again) to get into a course that will be more 'me' or do I leave for another country ? I've been absolutely lost. I've been failing at pretty much everything for the last two years. It has been exhausting. Trying and failing. Trying my best and failing yet again. I have this habit of giving my whole to everything. Even if I hate what I'm doing, I will give it my whole. So what should you do when you keep falling ? Do you get back up and keep fighting or do you just give up and surrender ? How would you handle it ? Would you settle? When life throws a curve ball at you, what do you do ? I don't want to get into too much details but I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. As I'm getting one step closer, life pushes me to the side. All my attempts to move on keep failing. I feel stuck.
speak the truth and laugh out loud.
Life is never easy. It keeps you on your toes. It rattles you. It certainly made me realize how important it's to be grateful. I've been incredibly lucky. This year, I've been able to travel to a few different cities. I've been able to grow and work on my blog. I've met amazing people along the way. I trust my guts and my guts are always right. I've learnt how important it's to cherrish the little things. The little things like good health, spending time with my cat in the morning, lazy days in the sun, afternoon walks in the countryside, time spent with old friends and family. In the end, all is well. Everything could be worse. I need to accept that I can't win at life. I can't have it all.
I strongly believe that we should be kinder to each other. We can never know what's going on in the mind of those who surround us. Being understanding, accepting and respectful are essential qualities. I wish more people were trying to be good. I wish we were more understanding, loving and respectful of each other. I wish being different wasn't so criticized. I don't understand people who judge others without knowing their stories or those who believe they're better than the rest of us. I will never understand or tolerate those who judge a book by its cover. They are worthless - a waste of human life.
Do your thing and be happy for those who get the chance to do what they want to do. Nowadays, it's sooo rare to see someone doing something they want to do. Or maybe, it's just me ? I've noticed that passionate people are hard to come by. Don't
I'm a firm believer of this thing called Karma. You get what you deserve. Yet, why is it that this world is filled with succesful assholes ? Do you have to be an asshole to succeed in life? Then, I guess I'll never have the life I've been dreaming of. I guess I will never make it. I'll never have my dream job, my dream flat, my dream life. I guess it's not written in my stars.
I'm not sure yet, if I should give up on my dreams.
I've never been much of a dreamer and yet, I've been dreaming of a different life for myself.
How do you deal with setbacks? What is toughest thing you've had to deal with? What's your life story? What are your dreams?
Thanks for reading this nothingness of a blogpost and I will see you on Monday! ♥
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