We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving. We pride ourselves on getting as little sleep as possible and thrive on self-deprivation.

Seeing people change is not what hurts ;
what hurts is remembering how they used to be.

So yes, lately I've been fighting this huge feeling in my guts. Awful and sad feeling that I could not shut off. The one that kept warning me that things will never be the same. Everything is changing in my life right now. A lot is going on at the same time and it's hard for me to deal with it. I've so many things to deal with. I've been very focused and reflecting a lot on life and everyone that is in my life right now. I can't help but notice that a lot has changed. I've changed. They have changed. And somehow we are not the same and we've drifted away. I don't enjoy all the things I did. I've grown bitter lately. I know that I shouldn't. I'm lucky. Luckier than most people. I have a part-time job, my studies, a family and a home. I kind of lost my good spirit during this holiday season. The Christmas break is always a tough one for me. But I'm working on getting my spirit back. Getting everything back on track. So I'll see you soon, okay ? Don't give up on me just yet.
Change can be good they say. They also say that not everyone is meant to stay in your life. I guess they're right. It's just hard to accept. To let go is not as easy as it sounds. Especially when you've so many good memories with a person. I've learnt that good decisions are never the easiest. So no matter how much it hurts I will do what I have to do.

« Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around. »

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
~ Herm Albright

I feel like in this world there is too much negativity. I feel like the world will tell you all the things you did wrong. It will remind you of how much you've lost. It will never tell you how good you've been, how much you've changed and how important you're.
So I want to let you know that YOU ARE IMPORTANT for me. YOU MATTER TO ME.

This too shall pass.

As you know, 2013 was not a good year for me. I decided that from now on, I will try my best at being positive. I focus on the goood things in my life and how blessed I am for having the best people in my life right now.

“All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.” ― Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina