We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving. We pride ourselves on getting as little sleep as possible and thrive on self-deprivation.

As you might have noticed from previous blogs about mascara, I'm a beginner. I'm not very good at applying it or choosing one. One of my closest friends advised me to try one of the mascara from Gemey Maybelline.

This Healing oil spray by Macadamia is one of my favorite hair products. It is on beauty routine since this summer. I think it is really soft and not greasy at all.

I'm sorry for being shit at blogging this past month. I have no excuses. I have had a very busy month: lot of work to be done and a project for my future in progress. I have been thinking about blogging and if my blog has a purpose. Is my blog irrelevant? I don't know. Perhaps you could help me. However, I enjoy writing quite a bit. I have decided that my blog will now be written both in French and in English. Some of you might know that I'm French. I love writing in English but it has been underlined that blogging in both languages could be a good thing so I've decided to give it a try. I don't know if I will like it or not. We will see. I'm also planning on doing more "personal" post. Would you like that or not ? I hope to get a few feedbacks from you guys ♥♥

Seeing people change is not what hurts ;
what hurts is remembering how they used to be.

So yes, lately I've been fighting this huge feeling in my guts. Awful and sad feeling that I could not shut off. The one that kept warning me that things will never be the same. Everything is changing in my life right now. A lot is going on at the same time and it's hard for me to deal with it. I've so many things to deal with. I've been very focused and reflecting a lot on life and everyone that is in my life right now. I can't help but notice that a lot has changed. I've changed. They have changed. And somehow we are not the same and we've drifted away. I don't enjoy all the things I did. I've grown bitter lately. I know that I shouldn't. I'm lucky. Luckier than most people. I have a part-time job, my studies, a family and a home. I kind of lost my good spirit during this holiday season. The Christmas break is always a tough one for me. But I'm working on getting my spirit back. Getting everything back on track. So I'll see you soon, okay ? Don't give up on me just yet.
Change can be good they say. They also say that not everyone is meant to stay in your life. I guess they're right. It's just hard to accept. To let go is not as easy as it sounds. Especially when you've so many good memories with a person. I've learnt that good decisions are never the easiest. So no matter how much it hurts I will do what I have to do.