Hello my birds,
I'm currently sitting at my desk. I'm wondering if I should go back to blogging.
2022 has not been my year. About 5 months ago, I was dumped by my 4 years boyfriend/fiancé.
My mom recently passed away after fighting Cancer for a year and a half. She died just a few hours before my 29th birthday.
I was lucky to have one of the best birthday ever thanks to my friends.
Everybody is telling me I'm so strong but the truth is I don't feel strong.`
I was raised by strong, independant, italian womens. Unfortunately, they both died from Cancer.
Like with pretty much everybody I love, Cancer won. This is definitely one of the worst disease.
I'm going to try and go back to blogging.

I'm not sure if anyone is still there but hey i'm back!

Hello my birds,

How are you doing these days? Long time no see, am I right?
Well, life has had its up and down. I guess it's the same for everyone. Life is just complicated and fragile. We've got to live through another day. No matter what. Life will go on.

I have learnt a few lessons in 2020 and early 2021, here are a few of them :
- you don't know when you will see the people you love
- always seize the opportunity life gives you
- never say no to life
- cherish every moment like it's the last
- don't let people get you down
- let go of anything that doesn't bring you joy
- no every battle is worth fighting
- trust your judgment
- don't let people make you think you're worth less than you are
- appearences are deceiving
- people always show their true colors
- people come and go and that's life


What did 2020 and 2021 have taught you thus far?

Thank you for reading and I'll see you soon ♥ x

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Hello everybody,

On the 22nd of september, I turned 25 years old. I had the best day ever. Almost all of my friends made the trip. We danced, laughed, ate cake and drank until 4 am in my favourite pub. I'm the luckiest girl on earth. I have awesome friends. It was one of the best days of my life.

Since then, I've been reflecting on my life. I am happy. Sometimes a little less. I tend to care too much and expect a lot of myself and from people around me. I can be pretty brutal. I easily forgive but never forget. I think too much. I want honesty and warmth. I crave attention and give my whole to everyone. I'm not sure I should keep doing that...

I've began this year to do a list of 25 THINGS TO DO BEFORE I'M 25. So here are a few things I did or plan on doing before I turn 26.

#1 Get my diploma.
#2 Get a new flat closer to my friends.
#3 Throw a big birthday party.
#4 Book a big trip to a far away country (California, here we come ♡)
#5 Go to the restaurant alone.
#6 Go for a walk alone.
#7 Travel alone.
#8 Do thalasso.
#9 Go back to brown hair.
#10 Go shopping alone.
#11 Drink less and eat healthier.
#12 Show more appreciation.
#13 Enjoy little things.
#14 Take small breaks.
#15 Cut some slacks.
#16 Be braver.
#17 Get a big tattoo.
#18 Shop less.
#19 Sell stuff.
#20 Work less and rest more.
#21 Learn to let a go.
#22 Be less serious all the time.
#23 Tell people I love them.
#24 Be more grateful.
#25 Try to be bold and bright.

What's on your list?

Thank you for reading and I'll see you soon ♥ x

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Hello my lovebirds,

I hope all is well.

I'm someone who tends to take things at heart. I get involve and I care too easily. I feel too deeply. I understand too much. I tend to have too much empathy - more often than so for people I shouldn't feel for. I don't know when it all happened but I've grown accustomed to taking someone's pain as my own. It can be quite devastating. Over the years, I have managed to keep my emotions on check somehow by accepting and doing 3 things.

#1 Perfection doesn't exist

This one is something we've all struggled with. Society and movies keep telling us to push further. To give it our best, to achieve perfection on our way to the top. The truth is perfection doesn't exist and it would be boring if it did. Life is messy. It doesn't always go your way. No matter how much you try to fix something, some things cannot be mended. You have to accept that people, life and things are not perfect. Nothing is black or white. You might have failed today but you can still succeed tomorrow. You can always do better. Nothing is set. Everything changes.

#2 'No' is always an option

For the longest time, I was one of those people who would agree to do things they didn't want to do. I would say 'yes' simply to please someone. I have a tendecy to put myself last. I have this crazy habit of considering others before me. I'm working on it. I'm working on learning that saying 'no' is okay. You can choose yourself. You don't have to hurt someone else in the process either. You can be direct and decide what your priority is. Your choices define who you are so don't do something for the sake of it! Oh and remember that people always leave and in the end, you only have yourself. Don't loose yourself trying to please someone else.

#3 Start a fuck budget

I read the book The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F**k and it was amazing. I've grown into someone who doesn't give too much fuck to people who don't deserve one second of my time. Life is too short to give fucks to things or people who don't deserve it. Now, before deciding on doing or caring, I stop and take a second to ask myself : 'would this person do the same thing for me? Does this bring me joy? Does it sit right with me? Does it improve my life or the life of someone I love?' If the answer is no then I'm taking a step back and leaving for the next chapter.


Do you have any experience or thoughts to share with us?

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I've been pondering whether I should post this blog or not. To be honest, I've been lost in my mind. It's pretty full. Full of shit. I figured that this post could be a good thing. Cathartic in a way. I also thought it might somehow help someone. Help someone who could be thinking and feeling the same things as me. Sadly, most of us have gone through life. Life has ups and downs. Sometimes, life gives you lemons. And this time, it left a bitter taste.

I'm a big lover of life. I always do my best to appreciate how lucky I am. I'm pretty darn lucky. I have a home, a devilish cat, a job I love and people who care about me. I don't think it gets better than that, does it?

However, I have grown mad at life. Don't get me wrong, I still get amazed by all the little things life brings but there is something about that rotten lemon, I cannot move past. I cannot process and adjust. I cannot wrap my mind around this rotten thing.


I guess this is the moment to stop eluding the subject. God knows, I'm direct. Sometimes, too blunt. On the other hand, this time, it's not easy. I really want to let people know they are not alone in this. I want to know that I'm not alone. Oh boy, how this hurts. It comes in waves and never stops.

Why? One may ask. I will let you on a little secret, my lovebirds...

I have lost my moon. I have lost my strength. I have lost a part of my life. A part of me died with her. I love her to the moon and miss her beyond the stars. She has made me a better person. She raised me. She made me who I'm and I will never be as good as she was. She was the kindest, smartest and most big-hearted person I will ever know.

With her by my side, I would never feel alone. She would always be there to catch me. She always had my back. She was more than a grandmother, she was my mother. She was my role model. She has helpt so many souls. I could not be more grateful. Grateful to have known and loved her. My life would have not been the same without her.

I'm not sure if anyone can understand. If you do, you probably felt the same way. That little crack inside. You have to hold your breath for a second. You want to press pause. You want to stop for a while. You cannot think of a world without her - or him.

And yet, you have to. This is only part of life. Life ends sometimes. There is nothing we can do.

As she would say : LA VITA VA AVANTI.

So this blog is an homage to my Italian blood but also to anyone who might be heart-broken too. Life sometimes gives you some very bitter lemons.

We have all lost something dear to our hearts. We have all been there... So when you're about to break, just know, that I'm here and I understand.



Life is simply like that. Things slip away and nothing lasts. So we might as well enjoy it while we still can.