How I feel about everything

31 October 2020

Hello my birds,
2020 has been quite the year for all of us. Whether we have had to deal with cancellation, deceptions, heart-breaks or tears, it has been a rollercoaster. I hope none of your family or close ones have been suffering of Covid-19. It is quite serious and nothing like what we have encountered before.

How I feel about the rising violence

What both scares me and pains me is the reaction of people and the rising violence. I don’t know what’s going on in your country but here in France, people are going nuts. It’s quite scary to hear all the terrible things humans do to each other. I don’t understand why. I don’t understand when people decided that they can do whatever they want and hurt whoever they want. We are all lost and sad. We are all stuck behind closed doors. We can’t do all we used to do. We have to make up for a new reality. We have to adjust and evolve. I am not sure everyone is realizing that. Many people are buying a lot of things. They are not caring for other or following government guidelines. They are only criticizing the government. I’m not sure they are doing the right thing either… But who am I to judge? I’m not in politics. I don’t have to be the one giving the bad news. I don’t have to make huge life and death decisions… So how can I judge them? I’m getting scared for our future if this is what humanity has become. Please tell me there is still hope out there for a better future...

How I feel about hunting

I have always been an advocate to the animal cause. I have a lot of empathy for people but there is one “sport” I will never agree with. Hunting is for me nothing but cruelty. I will never agree with a “sport” that celebrates and congratulates killing. I believe the only person who can decide who lives and who dies is god. One should never kill. An animal is as much of a being as a human. I have such strong feelings that I believe people promoting it should be part of an experiment. In this experiment, they should experience what animals feel when they are hunted. I’m sorry if you are a fan of hunting. Honestly, I could never understand it but you are allowed to if you do. I will never condemn you for liking it. I only think it should not exist.

What’s up with me?

I don’t think I have mentioned it here yet. I have lost my job on my 27th birthday. Covid-19 was the cause but also the remedy. The job in itself wasn’t all that bad. It was not ideal but nothing is. The team was nice. It was at a walking distance from my home which is always highly appreciated. It was quite the challenge and didn’t end up being what I thought it would be. It was a complicated 1 year and a half. To make ends meet, I had to work two jobs. I still didn’t have enough money to put some aside. I had a boss that was quite a piece of work at the beginning. Honestly, it wasn’t easy on all sides. In the end, I guess Covid-19 gave me a chance. Unfortunately, with the current situation, it has been complicated to find another job. I’m hoping to find one soon.
I have also moved in with my boyfriend (Mr. B for those who follow me on Instagram). We are living in a smaller and recent flat. It has a big balcony which is great. It’s very cute and cosy with a lovely industrial vibe.
I’m currently in lockdown. I don’t think much of it as I have been in that position since March. I only went to work in the office a couple of days in August. It does break my heart that I can no longer go to the gym. I have been going there everyday. It helps with my mental health. I have suffered from anxiety so it was amazing to relieve some stress with sport. It was also some place I could go and see people. I guess I will have to get used to working out at home again. Finding the motivation to do it, has not been easy. Have you managed to do it?

What about you? How have you been feeling?

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